I'm not here to tell you how to be good.

I have been writing these ‘Year Of Kindness’ essays built around the perhaps radical but core belief that complex ideas require ongoing and regular examination. I write to explore my life as it changes, and it's been a time of extreme and rapid change: From choice theft and trauma to new directions and returning to happiness, I have devoted myself to recovering from CPTSD over the last several months. It's been almost a year, and as I write this, I'm driving the Irish Loop o

The most important thing to remember is this To be ready at any moment to give up what you are for what you might become. -W.E.B. DuBois...

Content warning: This essay follows me for most of 2024, it shares what it must but keeps everyone anonymous, it spares me personal details and private pain. Please do not break anonymity or privacy, or expect more of me than i can give. This essay discusses BDSM consent violations, harm and abuse, assault, pregnancy loss, alt-right hate & harassment campaigns, death and sexual assault threats, trauma and trauma recovery. This is my year of harm, my year in trigger warning

The first sign I was building safety again came a few weeks ago, my body let me feel all the danger for the first time, and I spent over 23 days in a pain flare

Goodness is the blossom of our choices when we make choices conducive to life ~